- immediately expressing it to another for feedback; or displaying it to the world via some social media outlet
- watching a video on the same subject matter or reading an article for an “experts” opinion on how to deal
- looking at something funny so as not to deal
Instead….I chose to deal. I chose to feel my feelings and not run away from them. I chose to sit with them and just FEEL them.
It didn’t feel good, but it felt REAL. I even decided not to think or analyze why I always feel a sadness when a certain situation occurs. I decided to just FEEL.
I felt my feelings until I fell asleep. There was such a void created until I just didn’t feel much anymore. I feel stronger this way. And in this way I feel more…alive. A rustling from the furnace or whatever it’s called woke me up. I found a little white spider in my bed, then a tiny white feather; a little reminder that everything is going to be alright. A little sadness and pain never hurt anyone. I’m feelin’ that.
I looked up animal totems and read that white spiders are associated with good omens and more:
exerpt taken from this site:
The Spider is an ancient symbol of mystery, power and growth.
We take our first lesson from the ancient symbol of the Spider by contemplating its web.
Just as the Spider weaves a web, so too must we weave our own lives. The Spider symbol meaning here serves as a reminder that our choices construct our lives. When the Spider appears to us, it is a message to be mindful of the choices we are making – and ask ourselves:
- How are my choices affecting my life?
- How can my choices improve my life?
- How are my choices affecting others in my life?
Not only do Spiders and their webs draw attention to our life choices, they also give us an overview of how we can manipulate our thinking in order to construct the life we wish to live.
Spiders do this by calling our awareness to the amazing construction of their webs. Fully functional, practical, and ingenious in design – Spider webs serve as homes, food storage, egg incubators – seemingly limitless in their functionality.
When we consider this ingenious diversity, we can also consider the web-like construct of our own lives.How are we designing the most effective life?
When we see our decisions, choices and actions as far-reaching, effective tools in life – we can see how we weave a web that can either serve us or enslave us. The Spider symbol meaning beckons us to be mindful of our behaviors – be smart about the life we weave for ourselves.
How telling. How succinct. How relevant to the situation…I’ll never doubt the signs, because this one so resonated with me. Also, is there anything peculiar about someone who said they saw a tiny white spider and a white feather at the same time…on a forum…back in 2008? Wow. What does a feather mean to me? For me, it means a GOOD OMEN….I guess I’m constantly anxious because just about every sign to me means “erthang gon’ be alright baby…”
When you find feathers upon your path it could be taken to mean that you are on a higher spiritual path (whether you accept it or not), and it may be a sign of encouragement as you philosophically travel on this path.
Finding feathers on your path is also symbolic of having a lighter outlook on life or a particular situation. When we see feathers in our midst it is considered a message that we need to lighten up, not take things too seriously, and try to find the joy in our situation. (Found here.)
(At this point I had to stop because the word count was exactly 666. Now this is gettin’ too weird.)
I’m going to wrap it up now…Happy feeling and totem hunting! Hopefully the things in your life have meaning for you, as much as for me.